I recently left a government contracting role which I guess I completely mishandled. Miscommunication and a prejudice management left me in a position were I felt ostracised from other developers...
Of course this didn't really help my imposter syndrome and for two years I struggled with increasing isolation (in a new city), low(ering) self esteem, and feelings of suffocating in a hostile environment.
I don't really understand why it all happened, I know that I have certain character weaknesses that would make me prone to these situations developing... but the specifics on why it happened elude me; ultimately I blame myself.
It's been 2.5 months since I left and I'm struggling to find employment and I don't know why... I've been a day to day programmer for 3+ years, have a computer science qualification, and have some prestigious names on my resume. I guess in the Sydney market (perhaps others too) companies what you to have the relevant experience in specific frameworks (rather than just the tooling), which means I guess it's important to ditch legacy development and ensure you're on top of the most recent buzzwords.
That and with the state of civic participation/oversight, little to no personal engagement, and tiredness around getting asked the same bs questions from recruiters I start to wonder what's the point.
Of course this didn't really help my imposter syndrome and for two years I struggled with increasing isolation (in a new city), low(ering) self esteem, and feelings of suffocating in a hostile environment.
I don't really understand why it all happened, I know that I have certain character weaknesses that would make me prone to these situations developing... but the specifics on why it happened elude me; ultimately I blame myself.
It's been 2.5 months since I left and I'm struggling to find employment and I don't know why... I've been a day to day programmer for 3+ years, have a computer science qualification, and have some prestigious names on my resume. I guess in the Sydney market (perhaps others too) companies what you to have the relevant experience in specific frameworks (rather than just the tooling), which means I guess it's important to ditch legacy development and ensure you're on top of the most recent buzzwords.
That and with the state of civic participation/oversight, little to no personal engagement, and tiredness around getting asked the same bs questions from recruiters I start to wonder what's the point.